I Am Still Here….(I Wish You Were Too)

I have not totally forgotten this blog.

Life just took a strange turn.

I still read your comments.

And I always read your posts in your blog.

I looked over at my G+ page tonight.  It showed a post dated December 8, 2012.

It had a photo.

A desk calendar.

It was dated December 2011.

Yes, it has been a year.

Amidst everything that’s going on in my life right now,

No matter how busy I get or how tired I am,

I will always have that moment to stop and say…

“I wish you were still here.”

It’s Never the Same

Each day that draws August 19th near makes my heart break.

Another “first”.  Mom’s birthday. Without her.

Tonight I look at photos over at Facebook.  I scroll past this year and as I hit the November-December mark of last year, I see photos that family took of our last days with mom.  Her pixie cut hair.  Those sharp facial features.  The cheekbones and chin that becomes prominent everytime she smiles.  I miss those.

The hubs and the little one are on their way home.  The maid and I will follow.  Its a long weekend for us and what a great coincidence that it falls on her birthday.

Mom, you told Maja in her dream that if ever I needed to talk to you, you’re just there.

I miss you.  Mostly tonight. Tomorrow. And especially on Sunday. 

I finally fixed the locket tonight.  So I’ll be wearing you close to my heart every single day.

33 years was not enough for us to be together.

But I know you are happy and content to be where you are now. 

And with my tears, I still am glad.