A lot has changed since then. I’ve been busy with work, family, friends. Perhaps, in a way, trying to forget the past. Once in a while I’d think about this journal. I’d plan to write something. But then something comes up and I forget.
It’s been like that for 2 years.
In April of 2014 my sister got married. Exactly one year after she gave birth to a beautiful baby girl….mom’s exact lookalike. She recalls having dreamt of her sometime August last year. They were in mom’s bed talking about how life has changed since she passed away. My sister started crying.
Then mom said, “I have to go now. I’m bored here”.
“But we miss you.”
“It’s okay. I always watch over all of you everyday.”
Then she just disappeared.
My sister later learned she was carrying a baby girl.
In November I resigned from my old office and entered the private sector for the first time after 9 years. It was a big change. But demanding as it was, it gave me more time to spend with my family. I don’t know if mom would’ve liked me shifting careers. I would like to know what she thought. What she thinks. If I made the right decision.
About dad, well, he’s been coping in the best way he can. We gave him a Nexus 7 and Galaxy Tab….and gave him a Facebook account. It’s what’s keeping him busy these days. He says he’s semi-retired. He goes to the Hospital to check on them everyday, still wakes up early for church, then spends most of the day home….with his new grandchild. We try to go home and visit whenever we can especially during the long weekends.
Life has kept us busy these past 2 years. It has gifted us with so many new blessings and things to think about and look forward to. But this will never replace that empty space my mom once occupied.